idk man…i wish u were in my life. i know it was always me who let you down over and over again. i know every single time it was my own decision to cut ties. 12 years ago we met each other. last time i texted you was 3 years ago. i still think about you. and i still miss you. i want you in my life so bad but im even more scared to hurt you again…you are the best thing that ever happened to me. im so sorry. there is nothing i regret more in life than not being able to give you the things you deserve and not being able to keep you in my life. i tried so many times and failed miserably. idk how much damage i caused. i wish i could change things.